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Nur Shuhadah If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful, accident, turbulent, succulent, opulent, permanent, no way. I wanna taste it! Don't wanna waste it away~ So knock me off my feet. Come on now give it to me baby. (: I'd rather be anything but ordinary. |
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Friday, November 12, 2010
Alright, here’s the real deal. I was thinking of locking this journal (or whatever this is that I managed to keep for years) for good. I’ll try to keep it around for a while and we’ll see how it goes.
So I’m back. Not sure how long this stint will last but oy, be grateful.
I’m done with Facebook. The reason why I’m doing this is because, one of my friends in Facebook passed away. I only found out when her family posted about her funeral details. The first thought was, who is this person? Why is she even on my Friends list when I don’t even recognize her?
So, I asked around and I realized that she was the one who saved me once from an online game bully. Changed her name, that’s why I didn’t realize it’s her. She was even in a small, tight group that I was a part of. It was a terrible moment. I felt sick to my stomach. I couldn’t help feeling like I could have done something to stop her, somehow. I couldn’t understand or get over it, until now I guess.
(Juvi is my Indonesian Penguin btw. We're international.)
My head hurts now that I think about it.
Superficial. That’s what I think Facebook is right now. I have around 200 friends there but I only memorize around 15 person’s birthday. I used to be there genuinely because I don’t miss out on what friends I actually care about are doing. As I add more people, I find that I analyze cryptic status messages more. I have the tendency to care when I really don't have to. Bad habit. When I know what’s going on even without people saying, they ask me how. Even Azrie, when I tell him things that I notice from there. I’m thoughtful in case you didn’t notice and most of the time, my deductions are right. Why the hell should I even bother doing that?
Yes, it’s great to find long lost friends after years. But after the novelty wears off, you’re back to being old friends again. You’ll get separated and find each other again in years to come. It’s a vicious cycle. How many actually bother to exchange number and dropping hi-s and how are you-s every now and then? Not many. Even with current friends. Do you actually ask them how they are? I’m one to be guilty of this. I vow to change this.
So what’s your purpose Facebook? Flaunt your lifestyle? Crave for attention? Shove how popular you are in other people’s throat? Show off how successful you are? What is this desire in humans to share their private matters with the public? I have seen people's dirty laundry hanging all out. Cheating. Messy break-ups. Abuse. Self-destruction. You name it, I’ve seen it. Tell me, perhaps you are one of those rare breeds who can change my opinion about it.
As for now, sorry friends. If you have anything to tell me, sms me please. If you don't have my number, why are you even reading my blog?
On a personal note, I’m sorry to people on my MSN whom I chat often with. It seems that it’s deleted from my system and though I’m 2nd in charge in IT, my administrator will murder me if I install programs on my own. I don't touch the computer when I'm home too because I'm sick of looking at a computer screen. I’ll talk to you soon, I promise. Especially that one senior. (:
Here's a picture of us. You know, in case you forget my face and the fiancé's. Man, I love saying that. Fiancé fiancé fiancé! We're fine. It's exhilarating to be an engaged lady. Azrie's still unemployed but successful. *winks* We're still planning to get married on 04/03/12 (Yeah. I'm a geek. So?). Mark that down please. I plan to pursue my car license next year and I'm looking forward to something big happening in January. Wish me luck! 2011 will be an exciting year ((:
Till then.
Labels: Thoughts
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I just wrote a lengthy entry about something that I've been noticing lately. To give you a clue, the title will be, "How soon is too soon?" I shall post it on another day because it's kinda a sensitive issue. So I will need to proof-read before I get bombarded again. *shrugs*
Going to the Expo today for the wedding exhibition. Lots of decisions to be made. Venue. Caterer. Baju. Mak Andam. Deco. Berkat. Holy shizz.. Better write down all these. We have a few companies in mind that we might engage already. We'll see how it goes. Feels funny to realize that I am getting married. Warm fuzzy fluttery feeling. ((:
I going to chop off my hair. It's really long now and I think due to stress, it's falling out a lot too. I'm getting bald.. ): Well, not that you can see, but my hair reaches my hips now. It's pain to wash because it takes AGES to dry. I'm planning to jog every morning so long hair is a hindrance and an excuse to be lazy. *sayang my long hair* I must not regret this. If I do, please remind me that it'll grow again eventually.
Going to the Expo today for the wedding exhibition. Lots of decisions to be made. Venue. Caterer. Baju. Mak Andam. Deco. Berkat. Holy shizz.. Better write down all these. We have a few companies in mind that we might engage already. We'll see how it goes. Feels funny to realize that I am getting married. Warm fuzzy fluttery feeling. ((:
I going to chop off my hair. It's really long now and I think due to stress, it's falling out a lot too. I'm getting bald.. ): Well, not that you can see, but my hair reaches my hips now. It's pain to wash because it takes AGES to dry. I'm planning to jog every morning so long hair is a hindrance and an excuse to be lazy. *sayang my long hair* I must not regret this. If I do, please remind me that it'll grow again eventually.
Labels: Thoughts, Wedding Journey
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Reason #35562 why I love my fiancé: He gives in to me. A lot.
When we quarrel last time, he'll always say the above. Of course, I could never see it in the heat of the moment. Thinking back, he really does. He'll choose my preference over his when it comes to place of date, food and sometimes even route because he doesn't want me to walk too far in heels. *sayang* New couples, this are little gestures to show that you care and it goes a looooooong way. (:
Hey, he takes too ok. He loves BK, I love LJ. He always wins in this aspect, right hunny? :p I love you *snuggles*
Tulang adventure at Beach Road yesterday with Kak Noli and her friend was half successful. The tulang wasn't fantastic. Quite cair and just bleah. (As usual when I feedback-ed to the love, he boasts that Nenek's version is way better. I'll be waiting to taste it during Ramadhan. Whee~) Mutton chop saved the day though! Yummers..
Otey. Got to go~ Payroll is here once again. Take care. When life give you lemons, throw it back and demand for dark chocolates. Preferable with almonds in them. K bye.
Hey, he takes too ok. He loves BK, I love LJ. He always wins in this aspect, right hunny? :p I love you *snuggles*
Tulang adventure at Beach Road yesterday with Kak Noli and her friend was half successful. The tulang wasn't fantastic. Quite cair and just bleah. (As usual when I feedback-ed to the love, he boasts that Nenek's version is way better. I'll be waiting to taste it during Ramadhan. Whee~) Mutton chop saved the day though! Yummers..
Otey. Got to go~ Payroll is here once again. Take care. When life give you lemons, throw it back and demand for dark chocolates. Preferable with almonds in them. K bye.
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Redang Trip
I simply will not survive a cruise especially with Titanic running in my head constantly, slight claustraphobia and people smoking every-fudging-where. On a happier note, thank God for auto-roaming, beautiful skies, awesome kakis and World Cup to keep yours truly happy.
When I say Kak V, this is her (: Sayang her many2.
Introducing, Kak Noli. Another partner-in-crime. Sayang her many2 also.
One day, I'll bring you to see the beauty I witness there. InsyaAllah. (:
I watched Toy Story 3 with the love yesterday. A supposedly normal date turned out better than expected :p
What I was informed: Movie was at PS, 7:15pm.
Actually: Movie was at Marina, 7:15pm.
Time we realized this: 7:10pm.
Action taken: Walked super fast to take Circle Line and rushed to the movie. We made it! Thank God for advertisements. We didn't even miss a minute of the movie! :D
I truly enjoyed the little marathon we had and the movie was awesome! I caught grown men wiping their tears away silently. Muahaha.. (We didn't. It was close though.) It's one hell of a roller-coaster ride for the emotions. Funny. Sad. Scary. Relief. Hopeful. Very depressing. Happy. Sad. Funny. Happy. Love love love Toy Story 3. My new favourite Pixar movie! ((: Sorry Nemo.
I managed to snuggle in bed with my parents and Shidah last night. Dad sayang-ed me without me forcing him to like usual. I walked with him to the interchange this morning. When I salam-ed him, he seemed to 'belai' me. This is not good. I have a really bad feeling and I don't like it. If you have a little time after solat, do pray for my dad kay? I truly appreciate it.
Please don't take him away from me God.. I beg You ): I want him to be there on my wedding day, share stories about the prophets with my children like he did with me when I was small and perform the Haj like he always dreamed of.. Pwease? ):Labels: Love, Prayers, Redang, Thoughts
Friday, June 04, 2010
I miss Grilled Chicken Foldover. Why did McDonnies take it out from the menu? ): It's delish man.
I'm fine with homosexuality as everyone has the right to love don't they? Unfortunately, I had to come across with an extremely bitchy one. All I have to say is, it's just too damn bad that my fiance is loved insanely by a female me and he's wayyy better at what he does than you are. Suck it up and deal with it like a big boy. Sheesh.
Thinking of dropping by Bedok to watch the IVP on Caturday since Har is fighting. I remember that I ALWAYS get sick after the first week of IVP. I think it's due to the furious cheering since my fights are always in the second week.
It makes me wanna throttle people who just sit down and keep quiet. Though I have to admit that once you step into the gelanggang, you can barely hear anything but at the corner of the eye, you can see the team screaming and rooting for you. You can just feel the spirit of the team. Hard to explain it but those who have fought before should know. (:
I heard there's 9 fighters left in NYP. Miracles do happen. Don't give up even before the fight has begun. Keep your spirits high and fighting till your very last gong!
June is gonna be one hell of a month, I can tell (:
I'm fine with homosexuality as everyone has the right to love don't they? Unfortunately, I had to come across with an extremely bitchy one. All I have to say is, it's just too damn bad that my fiance is loved insanely by a female me and he's wayyy better at what he does than you are. Suck it up and deal with it like a big boy. Sheesh.
Thinking of dropping by Bedok to watch the IVP on Caturday since Har is fighting. I remember that I ALWAYS get sick after the first week of IVP. I think it's due to the furious cheering since my fights are always in the second week.
It makes me wanna throttle people who just sit down and keep quiet. Though I have to admit that once you step into the gelanggang, you can barely hear anything but at the corner of the eye, you can see the team screaming and rooting for you. You can just feel the spirit of the team. Hard to explain it but those who have fought before should know. (:
I heard there's 9 fighters left in NYP. Miracles do happen. Don't give up even before the fight has begun. Keep your spirits high and fighting till your very last gong!
June is gonna be one hell of a month, I can tell (:
Labels: Thoughts
Thursday, May 27, 2010
2 more days! And it's our monthsary. Happy 56th monthsary syg ((: Kind of our last one as a couple because in the next ones, we'll be celebrating as fiances! Awesome possum.
Kinda feels weird counting down as others are also counting down days to IVP and Adidas Sundown. Anywhoos, all the best to the NYP team. Bring back them goldies and make your trainers proud!
I can't describe the feeling for a 3 years wait, after countless of sweat and tears, and finally getting that gold in my bare hands. Glorious doesn't even come close. Strange that when I got it, I felt like saying thank you to everyone else instead of basking in the glory alone.
Because the win is not mine alone. It's for the people who ran beside me, people who held the padding for me, people who got injured while sparring with me, people who were cheering for me at the sidelines and people who were there for me almost every single day of my life in NYP.
Reminiscing about the old times always makes me really sad but on the bright side, I'm getting engaged to the man who makes my life complete. InsyaAllah, it'll last forever ((: New milestone, new memory to remember.
I'll be away over the weekend for obvious reasons. (: Please pray all will be smooth-sailing. Thank you~
Kinda feels weird counting down as others are also counting down days to IVP and Adidas Sundown. Anywhoos, all the best to the NYP team. Bring back them goldies and make your trainers proud!
I can't describe the feeling for a 3 years wait, after countless of sweat and tears, and finally getting that gold in my bare hands. Glorious doesn't even come close. Strange that when I got it, I felt like saying thank you to everyone else instead of basking in the glory alone.
Because the win is not mine alone. It's for the people who ran beside me, people who held the padding for me, people who got injured while sparring with me, people who were cheering for me at the sidelines and people who were there for me almost every single day of my life in NYP.
Reminiscing about the old times always makes me really sad but on the bright side, I'm getting engaged to the man who makes my life complete. InsyaAllah, it'll last forever ((: New milestone, new memory to remember.
I'll be away over the weekend for obvious reasons. (: Please pray all will be smooth-sailing. Thank you~
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Ahh. What a post. But c'est la vie (:Last weekend was a busy one. Spent it to get all the itty bitty bits done. I'm really hoping and praying that this Saturday will go off without a hitch. *prays*
Hunny surprised me with a Gold Class movie yesterday. I must admit that he's getting better with his surprises. Usually I can smell a rat :p He pulled this one flawlessly and beautifully. It's a very..comfortable experience (: Thank you syg..
Met Wensu yesterday too. She came down all the way to have lunch with me. Very honoured to be in your presence your Ungodliness. Remind me to take leave on 12th July ok. Sayang you many2.
I can't help but marvel at how lucky I am to be blessed with a tight-knitted family. You won't believe how many things you see on Saturday that are sponsored by them. *touched* Maybe it's because I'm still pretty much the baby of the family. :D
Abrupt end with my rare pretty face :D
Labels: Engagement Journey, Random Papadoms, Thoughts
Monday, May 24, 2010
I’m realizing that the only person I can count on is myself. I don’t mean that in the sense that everybody else lets you down. But you’re the only person you’ll see every day, every month, every year. You can’t count that other people won’t change in ways that seem strange or unappealing to you. Everybody changes, and you can’t expect people to change along with you.
-Sarah Waldorf
I've been following Sarah's livejournal since poly and she's an inspiring person to me. So young, so vibrant and so down-to-earth.
We meet so many people in our lives. We're like a subway station. People come and go. Some hang around. Some use it just to get to their destination. Some ride it as a matter of habit as they grew up with it.
I'm not good with changes but I've learnt with time that resistance is futile. I'm tired of changing along with people, especially when it comes with no warning whatsoever. I'll only be holding on to those who matters. So unless you and I have have something special to hold on to, I'm leaving.
Selfish, I suppose so. But I always believe in picking yourself up when you fall instead of letting others pick up pieces of yourself.
So I always say to myself, "Come on Shu-ee. You can do it" or "Just keep swimming.. Just keep swimming.. Just keep swimming swimming.." (Props to those who can recognise which Disney movie I got that line from :D)
Life always works out in the end. It'll all make sense when the final piece of the puzzle fit right in. (: Now your immunity to disappointment is +50!
Done with my ramblings. Till tomorrow.
Labels: Thoughts
Friday, May 21, 2010
Nothing in the world will make me want to exchange that few hours with you for anything else in this world.. (:Because in that few hours we..
Couldn't decide where to go.
Alighted in the middle Suntec and Beach Road.
Blame game.
Laugh at each other.
Chatter endlessly during our long walk back, with his hand in mine.
He challenged me to walk through a private property as a short cut.
Proceeded to call me chicken when I refused.
"OH YEA?"
Jumped of a freaking high ledge while people below stare.
and finally, dinner at my favourite Turkish restaurant, Sofra~
Best date EVAR. I can't stop smiling till now. *beams* So, I thank you hunny for good food, excellent conversations and yourself for loving me endlessly and excessively :p I love you! *snuggles*
Blessings, I has them. (:Congratulations to Azhar, Zaf, Khai and everyone else who has graduated recently! Now, party while you can :p
Labels: Best date EVAR, Love, Thoughts
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
It's one of those days where I just wanna kick off my slippers, tuck my knees close to my chest and ponder..
It's me and You now, God.
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
BAM!Finally a picture of my teh owner of the blog. Barely with make-up because I'm not motivated to wear too much as I'm training later today. Make-up running down the face is not smexy! Whee~ And yes, epic eye bags. Insomnia kicking in again.
Gawd. Steve Jobs, please make iPhone 4G's camera 5 megapixels and make a shutter button at the side for eff's sake. Thankyewvewymuch.
And a pic of what 99 stalks of roses looks like. Minus my very touched face and teary eyes. Hahaha.. Thanks hunny ((:Countdown till engagement day: 11 days! Oh my gawsh.
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Countdown till engagement: 18 days.
Time flies. Feels just like yesterday when I saw your solitary (looking mighty fine if I can add), squinting at me when I approached to talk to you..who knew you'd be mine? (: I love you..
I miss Polly Pocket suddenly. Those tons of role-play with my cousins (sister was still asilly wailing baby then) and hell, we grew up with those things. So fun! I had this huge star-shaped one that I really loved and those tiny ones too. Wish I hadn't thrown them away~
Entah eh korang. Sometime I really wonder why people who barely know us would like to have a say in our lives. Member bingit ah. Seriously, if my parents are ok with my decision, I don't give a flying apple puck about what you think.
Yes, I'm upset with you. Yes, I would rather meet you once all these is over. Yes, maybe I would like you to know what it's like to be in my shoes. It's not always about you. And you've been with me longer than my own bf, I think you should know better.
Time flies. Feels just like yesterday when I saw your solitary (looking mighty fine if I can add), squinting at me when I approached to talk to you..who knew you'd be mine? (: I love you..
I miss Polly Pocket suddenly. Those tons of role-play with my cousins (sister was still a
Entah eh korang. Sometime I really wonder why people who barely know us would like to have a say in our lives. Member bingit ah. Seriously, if my parents are ok with my decision, I don't give a flying apple puck about what you think.
Yes, I'm upset with you. Yes, I would rather meet you once all these is over. Yes, maybe I would like you to know what it's like to be in my shoes. It's not always about you. And you've been with me longer than my own bf, I think you should know better.
Labels: Thoughts
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
*credits to icanhascheezburger.comI feel like the baby today. I want to bite the people who piss me off. I want to smack the women whose butt kept bumping into mine no matter how much I tried to shift. MOVE IT
And ditto to Fana. If I were to write like nobody's reading, it'll be very vulgar and I'd most probably piss half of the world's population. Anyways, I hope your Angelina Jolie lips and stubbed toe is healing fine. Please make use of them kissable lips while it lasts! *evil*
Back to topic. Partly also I don't want to say things I might regret in the midst of my whirling mind. Words, unlike shit, cannot be flushed away. True, no?
Enough angst for today. If you're here because I was a happy blogger, come back in a week. Menses supposed to have come by then :D
K bye!
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
I just gave out 1k of cash yesterday. I'm broke at the start of the month. Yay responsibilities!
*sigh* FML to the max.
Not a good way to start my morning. It's just that I keep wondering how differently I'd live life if all my moolahs were mine to begin with. The great mysteries of life.
I'm not in a great mood. Feeling agitated and irritable. Thankfully I'm going for a seminar later and can have some Me time before meeting the bf.
Oh, yesterday I looked in the mirror, smiled and said, "I love you." Don't judge. How many actually like what they see their own reflection?
Can't wait to Sri's and Anuar's baby, Jannah~ Gorgeous name. The meaning of her name is Heaven btw. Hunny's very excited to see her. I told him to wait till cukur rambut or something as I believe Sri's still resting. He insists on seeing her soon. (: Lucky little one.
*sigh* FML to the max.
Not a good way to start my morning. It's just that I keep wondering how differently I'd live life if all my moolahs were mine to begin with. The great mysteries of life.
I'm not in a great mood. Feeling agitated and irritable. Thankfully I'm going for a seminar later and can have some Me time before meeting the bf.
Oh, yesterday I looked in the mirror, smiled and said, "I love you." Don't judge. How many actually like what they see their own reflection?
Can't wait to Sri's and Anuar's baby, Jannah~ Gorgeous name. The meaning of her name is Heaven btw. Hunny's very excited to see her. I told him to wait till cukur rambut or something as I believe Sri's still resting. He insists on seeing her soon. (: Lucky little one.
Labels: Thoughts
Friday, April 30, 2010
I'd love to live in a place where people ride bicycles or walk everywhere to their destination..
I'd love to live in a place where there's a beautiful park full of greenery and a gorgeous lake nearby..
I'd love to lie down on the park bask in the warmth of the sun..
I'd love to have a mosque nearby by house where I can pray there 5 times a day without any excuse..
I'd love to live in a place where everyone knows each other..neighbours..grocers..teachers..and greets you with a smile every morning..
I'd love to have a room in the cellar and there's an opening at the room where I can gaze at the stars at night in my warm bed..
All of these..with you.
I'd love to live in a place where there's a beautiful park full of greenery and a gorgeous lake nearby..
I'd love to lie down on the park bask in the warmth of the sun..
I'd love to have a mosque nearby by house where I can pray there 5 times a day without any excuse..
I'd love to live in a place where everyone knows each other..neighbours..grocers..teachers..and greets you with a smile every morning..
I'd love to have a room in the cellar and there's an opening at the room where I can gaze at the stars at night in my warm bed..
All of these..with you.
Labels: Thoughts
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Feeling a little mellow today.. *shrugs* Here's my two-cents on something random.
The concept of moving on is like growing up. You can't hurry it. You can't be stationary in that moment either. C'est la vie.
Follow the flow I must say. Follow where life takes you. Time waits for no man and it sure isn't gonna wait for you to heal before ticking again. Visit new places, see new beautiful surroundings, taste new food, meet new people and learn to love again. (:
Moving on is when you no longer think, "I wish I hadn't met him/her, I should have done this, I shouldn't have done that.." Accept reality. What's done is done. You can't turn back time, you can't swallow back your words and you can't undo what's been done.
Moving on is when you're able to look back and feel glad you met that person because it made you stronger and perhaps more kick-ass. *fist pump*
So to everyone who has walked into my life, whether you have touched my life or you were the conniving bunch who made my life a living hell, thanks for making me the person that I am. I like me for me. (:
Countdown till engagement: 30 days
The concept of moving on is like growing up. You can't hurry it. You can't be stationary in that moment either. C'est la vie.
Follow the flow I must say. Follow where life takes you. Time waits for no man and it sure isn't gonna wait for you to heal before ticking again. Visit new places, see new beautiful surroundings, taste new food, meet new people and learn to love again. (:
Moving on is when you no longer think, "I wish I hadn't met him/her, I should have done this, I shouldn't have done that.." Accept reality. What's done is done. You can't turn back time, you can't swallow back your words and you can't undo what's been done.
Moving on is when you're able to look back and feel glad you met that person because it made you stronger and perhaps more kick-ass. *fist pump*
So to everyone who has walked into my life, whether you have touched my life or you were the conniving bunch who made my life a living hell, thanks for making me the person that I am. I like me for me. (:
Countdown till engagement: 30 days
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Happy monthsary to you and me! I adore you to bits and pieces~ Thank you for loving me and always being there when life gives me lemons. Sayang sangat sangat!
Last time, I told myself I don't want to see my bf everyday. Takut muak. Hahaha.. Well, we see each other almost everyday, I'm loving it and still not sick of it..ever. :D
I love the familiarity.. I love the smell of his skin..the sight of him from far..the sound of his voice..the feel of his fingers in mine and the taste of his...err..hands when I salam him? Hehe..
Last time also, I told myself not to say I Love You everyday as it might lose it's meaning. How wrong was I?
We say it a lot in one day. Every night before sleeping, I'll say I love him. Though I know he'll reply me the very same "I love you too syg", I still glance at the message before falling asleep. Just for comfort.
Shouldn't we be proud to love? Proud to have FINALLY found a partner who loves you for who you are and to spend the rest of your life with?
When we're married, I don't want us to be those typical couples. Shy to hold hands, everything in the bedroom and whatnots. How boring!
I will kiss my husband when I want, wherever I want. Marraige is a the Halal-lation (if there're such a word) of physical contact and a lisence to romp like rabbits sia! (Virgins till marraige FTW~) Hahahaha..
But seriously, what is there to be ashamed about? I don't understand married couples sometimes. This includes my very own parents and many2 others belonging in that era.
Time bercinta, mana-mana nak romen. Kat Esplanade, dalam bas, dalam train, semua ah nak conquer.. Sheesh. Abeh dah kahwin, baru nak malu dengan anak. Sepak kang.
Now that you're legally husband and wide, all the more you should be intimate with your spouse right? Show your children how much you love each other! God.. Is that so hard? Pfft. Hell, I'll be comforted as a child if I see my parents being loving towards each other.
I promise that I will still hold Muhd Azrie's hands everywhere 10 years down the road and forever more. If not, slap me. (or we might be quarreling. Please check the next day before smacking me.) We will break the mould!
What a ramble. There, you have a taste of my crazy brain. BYE!
Last time, I told myself I don't want to see my bf everyday. Takut muak. Hahaha.. Well, we see each other almost everyday, I'm loving it and still not sick of it..ever. :D
I love the familiarity.. I love the smell of his skin..the sight of him from far..the sound of his voice..the feel of his fingers in mine and the taste of his...err..hands when I salam him? Hehe..
Last time also, I told myself not to say I Love You everyday as it might lose it's meaning. How wrong was I?
We say it a lot in one day. Every night before sleeping, I'll say I love him. Though I know he'll reply me the very same "I love you too syg", I still glance at the message before falling asleep. Just for comfort.
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Shouldn't we be proud to love? Proud to have FINALLY found a partner who loves you for who you are and to spend the rest of your life with?
When we're married, I don't want us to be those typical couples. Shy to hold hands, everything in the bedroom and whatnots. How boring!
I will kiss my husband when I want, wherever I want. Marraige is a the Halal-lation (if there're such a word) of physical contact and a lisence to romp like rabbits sia! (Virgins till marraige FTW~) Hahahaha..
But seriously, what is there to be ashamed about? I don't understand married couples sometimes. This includes my very own parents and many2 others belonging in that era.
Time bercinta, mana-mana nak romen. Kat Esplanade, dalam bas, dalam train, semua ah nak conquer.. Sheesh. Abeh dah kahwin, baru nak malu dengan anak. Sepak kang.
Now that you're legally husband and wide, all the more you should be intimate with your spouse right? Show your children how much you love each other! God.. Is that so hard? Pfft. Hell, I'll be comforted as a child if I see my parents being loving towards each other.
I promise that I will still hold Muhd Azrie's hands everywhere 10 years down the road and forever more. If not, slap me. (or we might be quarreling. Please check the next day before smacking me.) We will break the mould!
What a ramble. There, you have a taste of my crazy brain. BYE!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Kickass, was well, a pretty kickass movie! I usually shun violence in movies, but I find myself enjoying every bloodshed in it. :D Surprisingly, Nicholas Cage was good in portraying as Big Daddy. Thumbs up for you, old man.
Hunny and we went to explore Safra Yishun last week. Can't believe arwah was working there a few months back. ): But anyways, it was nicer than Tampines. Sorry syg. Haha.. The pool is damn nice. He treated me mamam at Eatzi. I find that the food and service there is much better than the one at Simei. Yummers!
We headed to my place after that to settle the invitation cards. What a freaking pain in the buttocks. I'm glad we got it done though. Simple and nice (:
I used to hate roller-coasters. Wimp, I know. But right now, I'd love to have the, cling on to the handles which are the only things that are keeping me from falling to my death and scream my lungs out. Like,
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEARGHHHHH
HOLYSHITIWANTMYMUMMY
(and the cycle continues)
:D till the day I can scream in ecstasy, (*cough*) screaming in fear will do for now. BAHAHAHAHA.. Ignore me.
Nano just reminded me to put hand bouquet into my To Buy List. Dammit. Give me a break woman! Heh heh.. Kidding. Love you nano!
WHY WHY WHY do people like to question anothers decision? Don't you think that the person have given it enough thought before making a decision like that? NO, we DON'T need a "Are you sure about this?" or even better "I don't think he's/she's the right one for you."
Let me just say this, on behalf of individuals who are wrongfully questioned. No, we don't know what'll happen after this because we're not God.
Surprise of the century isn't it? All we're doing is what we know is right and that we'll be happier than before. Why would we make a life-changing decision like that if we knew it'll only brings us misery in the end?
The basic rule applies here, please think before you talk. Even the nicest people can turn monstrous when provoked this way.
I stand by my decision to be engaged to get married to Muhd Azrie, come what may. I'm not afraid what the future has in store for us because I know I have him by my side to endure the storm with me for the rest of my life, how ever long or short it might be..
I've loved you then, I love you now, I'll love you tomorrow and forever more. (: Amin.
Hunny and we went to explore Safra Yishun last week. Can't believe arwah was working there a few months back. ): But anyways, it was nicer than Tampines. Sorry syg. Haha.. The pool is damn nice. He treated me mamam at Eatzi. I find that the food and service there is much better than the one at Simei. Yummers!
We headed to my place after that to settle the invitation cards. What a freaking pain in the buttocks. I'm glad we got it done though. Simple and nice (:
I used to hate roller-coasters. Wimp, I know. But right now, I'd love to have the, cling on to the handles which are the only things that are keeping me from falling to my death and scream my lungs out. Like,
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEARGHHHHH
HOLYSHITIWANTMYMUMMY
(and the cycle continues)
:D till the day I can scream in ecstasy, (*cough*) screaming in fear will do for now. BAHAHAHAHA.. Ignore me.
Nano just reminded me to put hand bouquet into my To Buy List. Dammit. Give me a break woman! Heh heh.. Kidding. Love you nano!
WHY WHY WHY do people like to question anothers decision? Don't you think that the person have given it enough thought before making a decision like that? NO, we DON'T need a "Are you sure about this?" or even better "I don't think he's/she's the right one for you."
Let me just say this, on behalf of individuals who are wrongfully questioned. No, we don't know what'll happen after this because we're not God.
Surprise of the century isn't it? All we're doing is what we know is right and that we'll be happier than before. Why would we make a life-changing decision like that if we knew it'll only brings us misery in the end?
The basic rule applies here, please think before you talk. Even the nicest people can turn monstrous when provoked this way.
I stand by my decision to be engaged to get married to Muhd Azrie, come what may. I'm not afraid what the future has in store for us because I know I have him by my side to endure the storm with me for the rest of my life, how ever long or short it might be..
I've loved you then, I love you now, I'll love you tomorrow and forever more. (: Amin.
Labels: Random Papadoms, Thoughts
Friday, April 16, 2010
Every since I started working, I realize I'm getting more cheena again. Hehe.. Not that it's a bad thing but it just gives me lots of flashback during secondary school times.
Back then, my bestfriends are all Chinese. I picked up the language slowly but surely, to fit in. While it's pretty easy to understand, to speak it is a whole matter altogether. I only had a Malay bestie in Sec 3 and hang out with Malays only in Malay class orwhen ogling at cute soccer guys supporting our school's soccer
I listen to Chinese songs, especially Jay Chou ones. I find it's translation so that I can understand what I'm hearing and it's hanyu pinyin too. To test your level in hanyu pinyin, try to pronouce 'Dou'. If you pronouced it like 'dough', you've a lot to learn. (:
I can rap to An Hao, I can croon to Kai Bu Liao Kou and cwy to Zui Hou De Zhan Yi. Azrie's still not used to me singing along to random Chinese songs that's played on radio. Haha.. And when they played An Jing at the karaoke the other day, I could still remember the translation.
Good times (:
Back then, my bestfriends are all Chinese. I picked up the language slowly but surely, to fit in. While it's pretty easy to understand, to speak it is a whole matter altogether. I only had a Malay bestie in Sec 3 and hang out with Malays only in Malay class or
I listen to Chinese songs, especially Jay Chou ones. I find it's translation so that I can understand what I'm hearing and it's hanyu pinyin too. To test your level in hanyu pinyin, try to pronouce 'Dou'. If you pronouced it like 'dough', you've a lot to learn. (:
I can rap to An Hao, I can croon to Kai Bu Liao Kou and cwy to Zui Hou De Zhan Yi. Azrie's still not used to me singing along to random Chinese songs that's played on radio. Haha.. And when they played An Jing at the karaoke the other day, I could still remember the translation.
Good times (:
Labels: Thoughts
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
- I realize that I stutter a lot when I'm tired which is really embarrassing. It's like my tongue is asleep way before I am. Bad tongue.
- The sneezles have started and I feel like sleeping all the time.. No appetite also. I can't afford to be sick man. Next week still ok. This week, I have too much to do. Gah. So body, hang on ok? *hugs myself*
- Have you submitted your tax? Please do. Not much time left! You can do it online too by going IRAS's webbie. Not going to spoon-feed you. Hmph.
- I shall share my favourite songs, according to some of my moods.
My favourite emo song in the world is My Immortal by Evanescence.
My favourite cope-with-this-stupid-world song is To Where You Are by Josh Groban.
My favourite I-miss-you-and-I-want-you-by-my-side-STAT is My All by Mariah Carey.
My favourite you-re-busy-working-but-I-just-need-to-hear-your-voice is Your Call by Secondhand Seranade.
All sad for now. Wait thill I'm happy for the happy songs list. (:
- Despite everything, I'm pretty much ready for engagement. Only left the invitation cards that I have to make because some people insists on having them. Tunang seh. Who gives invitation cards for that? But it's ok. Soon-to-be fiance and I will comply to your whims. Hehe..
I expect the usual, "Rabak seh tak jemput." WELL, I just have to say that it's really a small affair. It's just to formalize our relationship. Wait for our wedding k? Satu Singapore aku jemput. Hoho..
That's all for now. Meeting my Wensu and Wiwi soon. Miss them loads. Bunny, faster finish your exams k. *muacks*
- The sneezles have started and I feel like sleeping all the time.. No appetite also. I can't afford to be sick man. Next week still ok. This week, I have too much to do. Gah. So body, hang on ok? *hugs myself*
- Have you submitted your tax? Please do. Not much time left! You can do it online too by going IRAS's webbie. Not going to spoon-feed you. Hmph.
- I shall share my favourite songs, according to some of my moods.
My favourite emo song in the world is My Immortal by Evanescence.
My favourite cope-with-this-stupid-world song is To Where You Are by Josh Groban.
My favourite I-miss-you-and-I-want-you-by-my-side-STAT is My All by Mariah Carey.
My favourite you-re-busy-working-but-I-just-need-to-hear-your-voice is Your Call by Secondhand Seranade.
All sad for now. Wait thill I'm happy for the happy songs list. (:
- Despite everything, I'm pretty much ready for engagement. Only left the invitation cards that I have to make because some people insists on having them. Tunang seh. Who gives invitation cards for that? But it's ok. Soon-to-be fiance and I will comply to your whims. Hehe..
I expect the usual, "Rabak seh tak jemput." WELL, I just have to say that it's really a small affair. It's just to formalize our relationship. Wait for our wedding k? Satu Singapore aku jemput. Hoho..
That's all for now. Meeting my Wensu and Wiwi soon. Miss them loads. Bunny, faster finish your exams k. *muacks*
Labels: Engagement Journey, Random Papadoms, Thoughts