Alhamdulillah.. It went really well and I was really touched to the point of crying several times.

1) When Abg Nana came!
I don't even have to explain in length why this means a lot to me. (: I was really caught off guard because I wasn't even ready yet and was still preparing the reception downstairs. Even thought I was dreaming. Really really touched.

2) Seeing all my besties and favourite cousins in one room.
Best day of my life.

3) When Bunny hugged me.
Nabeh. I think she almost squeezed my tears out. A lot of people hugged me that day, but that one almost made me cry. No idea why. Love you bun bun.

To be honest, I was pretty numb that day. My dad wasn't well and it was really affecting me.. I know some people noticed and I'm sorry for that. I'm daddy's princess since forever and I couldn't help it.

Only when I started sending thank you messages to all (well almost all. I didn't have all the numbers) then I teared. It's not everyday that people put an hour (for some, HOURS) just for me. Some have marathons and competitions to go to right after mine.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, each and everyone of you. Thank you for your prayers too to those who couldn't come. (: I appreciate it very much!

And thank you Muhd Azrie for loving me unconditionally even though you've seen me true colours. It's an honour to be yours. We will make it happen syg.

Engagement journey has eneded. Marraige journey has just begun (:

Last weekend was a busy one. Spent it to get all the itty bitty bits done. I'm really hoping and praying that this Saturday will go off without a hitch. *prays*

Hunny surprised me with a Gold Class movie yesterday. I must admit that he's getting better with his surprises. Usually I can smell a rat :p He pulled this one flawlessly and beautifully. It's a very..comfortable experience (: Thank you syg..

Met Wensu yesterday too. She came down all the way to have lunch with me. Very honoured to be in your presence your Ungodliness. Remind me to take leave on 12th July ok. Sayang you many2.

I can't help but marvel at how lucky I am to be blessed with a tight-knitted family. You won't believe how many things you see on Saturday that are sponsored by them. *touched* Maybe it's because I'm still pretty much the baby of the family. :D

Abrupt end with my rare pretty face :D

Countdown till engagement day: 12 days

OH MY GAWD! Less than 2 weeks! The excitement is kicking in big time right now. ((: *dances around*

I have yet to send out my cards. Sorry to those who are waiting. I'm still compiling and whatnots. Kinda nervous about missing out on some people.

Flowers, cake and tudung left (:

This is so worth getting broke over <3

Oh, happy belated birthday to my favourite kambing in the world, Nur Shahidah Bte Mohamed. Be good ok? Grow up and be a useful daughter to ayah and ibu.

K bye!

It's officially a month before my engagement. A month before I'm out of the 'market' and shelved till I become Mrs Azrie.

Wow. Cool or whatttt?

People keep asking me if I'm excited. Excited isn't really the right word to describe what I'm feeling. I feel..calm.

This engagement is just a milestone to our actual destination. The journey hasn't ended yet. (: The only difference between now and 29th May onwards, is the ring on my finger and that it's a sin for other men to come in between us. So men who fancies me from afar, tell me within 31 days or forever hold your peace!

*cricket sound*

ANYWAYSSS, I have yet to give out the engagement cards. I have yet to decorate my gifts for him. I have yet to collect my baju which should be ready next week. I have yet to buy a tudung that matches my baju. I have yet to confirm the berkat for small buggers.

I'm so on the ball.....not. Nvm, slow and steady!

Oh, please pray we get the bid for our future home! *prays*

Let's start the countdown baby!
Countdown till engagement: 31 days

- I realize that I stutter a lot when I'm tired which is really embarrassing. It's like my tongue is asleep way before I am. Bad tongue.

- The sneezles have started and I feel like sleeping all the time.. No appetite also. I can't afford to be sick man. Next week still ok. This week, I have too much to do. Gah. So body, hang on ok? *hugs myself*

- Have you submitted your tax? Please do. Not much time left! You can do it online too by going IRAS's webbie. Not going to spoon-feed you. Hmph.

- I shall share my favourite songs, according to some of my moods.
My favourite emo song in the world is My Immortal by Evanescence.
My favourite cope-with-this-stupid-world song is To Where You Are by Josh Groban.
My favourite I-miss-you-and-I-want-you-by-my-side-STAT is My All by Mariah Carey.
My favourite you-re-busy-working-but-I-just-need-to-hear-your-voice is Your Call by Secondhand Seranade.
All sad for now. Wait thill I'm happy for the happy songs list. (:

- Despite everything, I'm pretty much ready for engagement. Only left the invitation cards that I have to make because some people insists on having them. Tunang seh. Who gives invitation cards for that? But it's ok. Soon-to-be fiance and I will comply to your whims. Hehe..

I expect the usual, "Rabak seh tak jemput." WELL, I just have to say that it's really a small affair. It's just to formalize our relationship. Wait for our wedding k? Satu Singapore aku jemput. Hoho..

That's all for now. Meeting my Wensu and Wiwi soon. Miss them loads. Bunny, faster finish your exams k. *muacks*

Hunny and me had a fab time yesterday.. Finally we get to sit down to have dinner together and spend time with each other. I love simple dates like that. Just us, basking in each other's company and have great conversations.. (:

We are still pretty much affected by the demise of Saifullah. I guess it's because we can relate to them since we're planning our own marriage which is not an easy decision to make and the fact that they both has cancer..

Hunny went to the funeral and he told me that the mother fainted.. Like syg said, "Baru nak senang..mulakan hidup baru.. Semua ibu mesti harapkan anak untuk mendoakan dia. lepas dia pergi. Ni terbalik pulak.." For me, to describe my actual feelings in politically incorrect terms, I'm sedih nak mampus.

Marraige is a promise of love for a lifetime.. Your heart beats for only one person despite billions others..but how can you be sure that it won't be broken by the very same? That's the risk couples take when they decide to tie the knot. Especially when they're young. Like them. Like us.

The journey itself is not easy. So many hurdles to cross before we're legally husband and wife. Though we're two years away from our marraige, I can already forsee that I will cry the day we finally diijab-kabulkan. The tears of unbridled happiness and relief.

It's so hard even for now..and this is just the appetisers. Sometimes, I feel so tired. I wonder why I put myself through all these when I should be enjoying life like everyone else is. Travelling (it's my ultimate dream. so get used to me bitching about it), socializing and simply being young.

That's why we feel so much sadness for them..we were them maybe just a year ago. It only takes a great loss like Saifullah..whom for him and his wife, a lifetime means only 4 months.. ):

However, it brings me back into the right direction again..the actual purpose of tying the knot. This love has to be sealed, the rest be damned.

Age is just a number. Death knows no boundaries.. Really, how much time to we have..? I've been a daughter, a sister and a friend. Now, I want to be a wife to a man I love so much..and if possible, should time and rezeki permits..a mother too. InsyaAllah..

We can do this, love. Let's do it..

5 minutes update.

Weekend was spent in Johore, searching for engagement stuff. Lugging the stuff across the highway is no shit man. Still, I think it's gonna be a lovely one. (: It better be after so much effort, time and moolah involved. Hmph. Hunny, make sure your hantaran is nice also ok. :D

I have a my Nano to thank for eternity. She's very much my planner because I swear, I hate doing all those planning and shopping alone. ): She followed me to Johore, will be baking the cupcakes that you guys will be eating as berkat, she made me sit down and write my guest list, what I need to buy and all that jazz. Without her, I'll most prolly crack from the pressure. So thank you Nano. *muacks*

Monday evening was spent with yayi, nozie, anuari, mariri, azrie and abang nini. Hehehe~ We went karaoke-ing. It was awesome. Loved it when they danced to Bad Romance. And I sang a Justin Bieber song out loud. Lizah would be proud. Hahaha~

I have nothing against that little kid with immense talent. He's just too young to be singing about love. You ain't seen nothing yet, buddy.

Changed my tudung style to wearing a shawl. Good response so far. Wearing happier colours and injecting some style to my clothes too. WHY SHU? WHY? Because I feel like it. Because I need a boost to feel that I'm alive. I'm complicated like that.

I love my bf. A lot. I can't wait to introduce him as 'my fiance'. Emphasizing on the MY of course. Hehe.. Lately we quarrel about mundane things. Nothing that cannot be solved within the day itself. I enjoy making up with him. There's the urge to just squish him like a bug, or snuggle instead. Hahahaha.. :D Saaaaayang dia!

Done. Be good everyone.

It started with me doing tons of household chores. sometimes i wonder if i have any other siblings at all *rolls eyes*

first i vacuumed.
second i mopped.
(twice. once with dettol and another time with water)
third i changed the curtains.
forth i dusted.
fifth i washed the toilet.
sixth i made........

made them during kak mariana's risik too. so i'm an unofficial kirai and begedil maker in the family. hehe..

i forgot to take pics of my pants which was covered in huge yellow spots because i'm a messy camper. spilled some of the batter while stirring :D muahahaha.. hey, it proves that i'm working hard to be worth 10,000 buckeroos.

this, little cutie below, stole my limelight!

i didn't take pictures of the discussion because i was bz in the kitchen and web-camming with bf while playing with myrah at the same time. (multi-tasking FTW~) she was so excited to see the lappy and keep laughing at syg :D told hunny he was like a pedo, preying small girls on the Interweb. :p

it was a quick one because azrie and me have already agreed on the hantaran and length of pertunangan. (pandai2 je budak2 ni eh.) hehe.. so it was just a little chat (: i was so tired by the time everyone went home as i was on my feet almost all day..but it was worth it!

That's myrah with my wakil aka her atuk (: she's super manja with him. cannot tahan. like when she's crying, cik yunus just have to pop in and ask, "kenapa myrah.. siapa kacau?" She'll quiet down and gives that carry-me-atuk look. haha.. sneaky baby.

Thank you abg emi and kak ju for coming~ you guys took the edge off my nervousness away. ((: most importantly, thanks cik yunus and ibu for putting off plans just for me.

Thank you! Domo arigato! Merci!

and thank you BB Myrah for making me giddy with happiness just with your gummy smile! ((: Auntie Shu loves you many many!

I'm sooooooo sorry! i haven't got the time to update at all as i've been in a meeting. Gah.

Risik is tomorrow siaaaa. flying apple pucks. luckily his wakil is his uncle whom i'm familiar with so it takes the edge of nervousness off. my biggest fear is..........








WHAT IF THEY BARGAIN ME?

His wakil: APA! 10 RIBU! Lu gila kape~
My dad: Dah bagus tu. nasib baik gua tk mintak $11,111.11. terkencet lu nanti!

Fierce eh. Aku rase kalau mat2 ngan minah2 zaman ni, time anak diorang kawhwin, scenario ckit lebih kurang macam ni ah... bahahaha.. what i mean was, bargain my hantaran~ like i'm piece of...

seekor ikan badut yang comel..virgin lagi. *giggles*

azrie and me have agreed our terms (mak kau.. T&C pe!) already but i'm just saying. takut2 diorang pandai2 tukar plan. you can obviously see my nervousness when my broken Melayu emerges. pray it'll go well kay?

hahaha.. so kaypo right this monkey.. i love you darling ((:

my soon-to-be 1st bling!

come back to mama soon!