This week has been pretty rough as my previous posts might suggest. i made a major decision that affects our relationship a great deal and yes, i wrecked a minor war. we sorted it our though.

we're a normal couple after all. we do have our ups and downs.. thing is, we don't bring a quarrel to the next day and we always talk it out eventually. that's what i love about us. *sayang*

i'm sorry if i upset you greatly hunny..but i'm pretty sure it'll do us good.. you know i love you and i won't forsake what we've built over 4 years just like that. please think it over..

because of my shitty mood (excuses excuses), this shall be a summary of this whole week~

365 Days Project-Week 3 (05/02/2010-11/02/2010)

Woke up early for some replenishing of the religious knowledge @ Mawaddah. Usually it'll be so hard for me to go this as it's early in the morning. weekends are for me to catch up on sleep man. ): but i love going here with mummy and so i reluctantly get my lazy butt off the mattress.

oh, please remind me to show you what i sleep on. and compare it with my sister who sleeps on a bed and w a tilam twice the thickness of mine. aku dicucu-tirikan. blah.

ANYWAYS, after that it was...................

free loader of the day. don't be fooled by that face. she's triple the monster that i was in my teens. *rolls eyes*

Tuesday~ in the spirit of CNY, my ang moh boss gave us all a hong bao!

awesome possum. not a lot lah..dulu bapak aku kasi duit raya lagi byk ah.. but it's the thought that counts right? (:

Thursday~ whenever i feel like crap, i simply look out of the window from my office and look at the never-ending blue sea..

to be fair, all you see is containers..but look further than that~ there's he sky and the sea.. breath-taking and very beautiful view (:

The dreaded day for singles - Valentine's Day.

DUN DUN DUNNN!

even tho i'm attached, i still hate Valentine's Day with vengence. what's the big fat hairy deal of 14th Feb? shouldn't love be celebrated everyday? most over-rated shit EVER.

when i was in lower sec i was fat and gross. every v-day, the school will organize delivery of flowers and shit. my friends will all receive at least one while i have nothing. and they wonder why i have a disorder.. muahaha.. sec 1 and 2 was hard. slowly i got used to it. *shrugs*

then i broke up with my ex a day before Valentine's Day. holy sheep balls, it hurts like a mother. first break-up ok. everywhere i go, i see couple and yes, those DAMNED expensive flowers. the very same tt fools buy at a period when florists jack up the price just for V Day. oh, this ex added me at facebook a while back..and then deleted me. so why bother in the first place? siao ah.

so now you all know. i have my fair share of rejection, low self esteem, betrayal and negativity. but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? so singles on this Valentine's Day, be strong! Spend time with your family or just do something you love that you've always wanted to!

and Happy Chinese New Year to my cheena friends~ *roar*

before i'm washed away by my acute disappointment, i better upload my weekly pictures since cable's such a darling. i'm a believer in cosmic balance. (:

365 Days Project-Week 2 (29/01/2010-04/02/2010)

29/01/2010: The day iPad was released and yea yea..enough with the sanitary pads joke. sheesh. inspired, i munched on a delish apple and there you go! Love apples :D

30/01/2010: went to Atuk's place to see little Raziq~ Doc said there's some problem with his hearing. after azrie's wrongful diagnosis of having TB almost 6 MONTHS before they 'realized' he has cancer, i am very skeptical about doctors. if anything happened to my bf in that length of time, i'd sue their pants off.

so i was carrying Raziq and i suddenly sneezed out loud. he was so startled! haha.. sorry BB~ but hey, i made yr parents relieved that you're a normal baby afterall. and as expected, BB is fine. *rolls eyes*

31/01/2010: i LOVE going pasar with my parents n brother. dad always avoid the wet market and waits somewhere so brother and i liven up the atmosphere for ummi.. :D after shopping in MAD crowded geylang, we had beancurd from Rochor~ oh.so.good. it was so smooth and silky like my baby's bottom. err.. haha.. yea :D

01/02/2010: Most horrible hor fun EVER. tt glutinous mass is actually shitloads of starch. luckily it wasn't mine but it's enough to put me off eating hor fun for a long time. ugh.

*psst fana* it's from whitehouse. you've been warned~ the rest of the food selection is super nice though!

02/02/2010: i met up with wiwi. i have no idea why but we rarely take pics together. just trust me, i have friends. just that they are few and in between (:

03/02/2010: i hate long bus rides with vengence. i have bad motion sickness so it's pretty much a nightmare..and not having hunny beside me to lean on sucks even more ): the things i do just to be with him. knowing he'd do the same helps tho. (:

04/02/2010: i was looking at my medal that has become a decoration on my work desk. i hate reminiscing about the past but i heard some news about the team.

first things first, it should not have happened now. Like in February when they should be training for IVP already. then again, things happen. good luck to you juniors. may the future coach bring NYP Silat to its former glory (: Amin.

21/01/2010: The day i was sent for my first IT talk. i was antagonized by IT jargons and almost fell asleep. haha~ they were having lucky draw for a net book and there were only 20 of us! but i didn't get it. WHAT ARE THE ODDS SIA. i never win in lucky draws..ever.

also, it'll be the last you see of my hazel-eyed beauty. the contacts slightly infected my eye but did i throw it away? of course not!

22/02/2010: i paid for the price of vanity the very next day. My eyes were blood shot and i had to remove them once work ended. blindly made my way back to SK for Hafiz's birthday party and it was worth it.. little man is 2 years old! i adore him since he was a baby~ ((:

23/02/2010: Date with the love! i think i took this picture just to prove how difficult it is to get him to pose for me. don't blame me for bad pics ah syg..

24/02/2010: While we were going home from another birthday celebration, my ez-link flew out of this holder on the bus and i was frantically looking for it. hunny saw this man sitting in front of us picked it up, looked at him and pretended nth happened. wtf? so hunny asked the man to return it to me and thankfully he did. i was so confused whether to feel thankful or angry.

25/01/2010: Sourcing of hataran gifts for him~ got him an Armani perfume set! slowly but surely, i'm completing the required number of gift exchanges :p there was one perfume from their that really smelt like 'spray lipas'..you know..Sheildtox? the only explaination i could think of was that Armani probably never needed to use one in his life and hence approves this scent. yeesh.

and all that walking made us hungry. prata+hot dog+mayo=yummers :D

26/01/2010: one word, PAYROLL.

my brain was so fried by the time i was done, i went home in my slippers. too cool for school baby.

27/01/2010: MONTHSARY :D

azrie is contemplating on some courses lately and usually, they are certifications from the US. he didn't tell me that he has decided on one so i wanted to see what's inside..only to get a resounding "NO" from him. *shrugs*

and then.....

omgomgomgomgomg! :D it's hereeee~ it's one of the hantaran gifts he bought for me and it happened to match the top i was wearing! i love it! baby ring and baby coach will be all mine soon! *dances around*

AHEM. where was i? oh yea.

28/01/2010: No idea why no pictures. all i know is that i'm meeting my dateline for payroll. GAH. and date after that. we talked abt the future n stuff.. i was really emotional that day. i remember just having him by my side and looking at the stars..thanking God for answering my prayers and giving him to me.. then i started crying.. yea. :D

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if you're wondering why i spend so much time with azrie, it's because it's his morning shift. He ends at 3 so after that we can date and just spend time with each other (:

During his afternoon shift, we meet only twice a week. Once when i fetch him from work to go home together and once for a date during the weekend~ this week is afternoon and afternoon is always sucky ): but i'm fetching him today and while waiting for him, i'm gonna burn fats! gambatte Shu-eeeee~

k bye!

hahaha.. so kaypo right this monkey.. i love you darling ((: