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Monday, August 23, 2010
Kiki passed away on Saturday. I am depressed as fudge. However, I'm really thankful I got to spend time w her in her last hours. Fed her, cleaned and massaged her too (:
When I was about to feed her at night, I found out that she's no longer breathing. Called her name several times and sayang-ed her. No response. Didn't know how to react at first. Told my sister to hold her and confirm that she has crossed the rainbow bridge. Yep. Confirmed. While she's crying and all, I felt so over-whelmed. Still don't know what to feel.
Wrapped her w soft tissue and tied with a pretty pink ribbon.. Buried her near a path where I always walk past when I go home.. Near pretty flowers.
I hope she's crawling happily in heaven grounds, sharing hammie kisses with God. I love you little one. You're my only one, and always will be.
Rest in peace my baby.
When I was about to feed her at night, I found out that she's no longer breathing. Called her name several times and sayang-ed her. No response. Didn't know how to react at first. Told my sister to hold her and confirm that she has crossed the rainbow bridge. Yep. Confirmed. While she's crying and all, I felt so over-whelmed. Still don't know what to feel.
Wrapped her w soft tissue and tied with a pretty pink ribbon.. Buried her near a path where I always walk past when I go home.. Near pretty flowers.
I hope she's crawling happily in heaven grounds, sharing hammie kisses with God. I love you little one. You're my only one, and always will be.
Rest in peace my baby.
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
I won't lie. I'm not in the mood to update. Kiki is really ill and is in a lot of pain. She's 'bed-ridden' and can't eat much so she has to be force-fed. She's not really happy with the idea of having a syringe pointed at her mouth. She already bit me twice this week. The vet suggested putting to sleep but I couldn't do it right away.. She's my first pet..my little baby ): I'm checking with MUIS with regards to euthanasia.. Though I have a feeling it's not allowed, the instinct to end Kiki's pain is really kicking in.
It's hard. Really really hard. Everytime I check on her, I have to steel my heart and feed her. She's very skinny now. One paw is dead from all the biting Kiki did. ): I forsee infection. She has a tumour in her tummy, hence the lack of appetite. It's very mentally and emotionally draining. Mentally, as I can feel the pain she's in but I can't do anything abt it. Emotionally since she's my darling.. She's very docile and cuddly. I can hold her to my cheeks and let her kiss me. Other hamsters will bite my fishball cheeks off. Whenever I felt sad, just holding her makes me feel better.
I miss her fluffy, chubbier and walking self. She's wasting away and I feel so helpless. Brought her to the vet twice in a week. No hope for cure it seems.
God,
They say in fasting month, you grant more prayers.. I don't usually ask a lot.. But Kiki is in terrible agony.. Please end it as gently as you can.. ): I cannot see her like this.. If you have better plans, please grant her a miracle and cure her? Please?
Me.
It's hard. Really really hard. Everytime I check on her, I have to steel my heart and feed her. She's very skinny now. One paw is dead from all the biting Kiki did. ): I forsee infection. She has a tumour in her tummy, hence the lack of appetite. It's very mentally and emotionally draining. Mentally, as I can feel the pain she's in but I can't do anything abt it. Emotionally since she's my darling.. She's very docile and cuddly. I can hold her to my cheeks and let her kiss me. Other hamsters will bite my fishball cheeks off. Whenever I felt sad, just holding her makes me feel better.
I miss her fluffy, chubbier and walking self. She's wasting away and I feel so helpless. Brought her to the vet twice in a week. No hope for cure it seems.
God,
They say in fasting month, you grant more prayers.. I don't usually ask a lot.. But Kiki is in terrible agony.. Please end it as gently as you can.. ): I cannot see her like this.. If you have better plans, please grant her a miracle and cure her? Please?
Me.
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