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Nur Shuhadah If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful, accident, turbulent, succulent, opulent, permanent, no way. I wanna taste it! Don't wanna waste it away~ So knock me off my feet. Come on now give it to me baby. (: I'd rather be anything but ordinary. |
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Saturday, September 26, 2009
hello world..aka me.heh heh..
*takes a bow*
i'm pretty shagged so bear w me.
-i wasn't here to update yesterday because i accompanied the love to his 2nd chemo~
it seems better this time..
he din feel much nausea..thanks to yours truly's presence i think. hehe..
i'm really glad i took leave tho it was a crucial week at work because it was worth it.
as for the process..let's just say i can picture in my mind now when they say 'cocktail of drugs'..
so far it's purple and red.
he's also losing lots of hair and hence has shaven his head..
i felt a lump in my throat when he ran his hands thru his hair and a clump of it fell out.
very rude shock.
only when he was drugged to sleep then i dare to cry.. ):
it's not abt the hair tt's bothering me.. just tt i always told him tt he looks really good when he was botak..
but this is not how i's like my wish to come true..no..not like this..
may i take the request back God..? please?
i wish i can be w him to his every chemo because it'll suck to go thru it all alone..
*prays*
-my daddy is half a century today.
i told him to live till a hundred. :D
love you daddy~
please God..allow me to give him a good life..
he has sacrificed so much for me.
-it's Azhar's birthday also.
so happy birthday to you~
-i feel some swelling at e left side of my inner cheek.
shall go for a dental check-up soon..
hope it's not wisdom tooth *prays*
wonder if i'll look adorable as usual w a swollen cheek.
hey, it looks cute on NurAkiki.
-BB Raziq's granny is at the ICU..
liver and kidney has failed.
can't speak..but still responds..
like when my uncle asks if she miss BB Raziq, blink her eyes, and she did.
doc gives 2 days to observe.
if there's no improvement, they're take her off life support and God knows what next
*cue my ramblings on euthanasia*
i'm truly exhausted today..i just wanna ask no one in particular..
How fair is it to make tt decision for someone who clearly is fighting to live?
Is it really in our hands to decide tt?
Bismillahitawakkaltu'alaullah.. Lahaulawalakuwataillabillahil'alaul'azim..
-it's our 4th anniversary as of right now..
i love you syg..
it's been a beautiful journey w you..be it in laughter or tears..
this rocky road we're facing makes me appreciate you more and my love for you to reach new heights..
our next milestone: celebrating 5th Anni as fiances :D
InsyaAllah <3
life is always a balance of high and lows.
like HL milk. lol..
pics when i return back to work on monday.
toodles world.
never underestimate the power of prayers..
there's immeasurable power in it. (: